Shopaholic??

I am in a dilemma to decide whether i'm a shopaholic!! Well i do love shopping!! Although i am not a lavish spender!! I Love it,its not just the window shopping i love... i don't like spending plenty just on these perishables!! Every time i end up with an impulsive buy i turn all sad and guilty... so my thoughts about shopping kinda lies a lil bit here and a little bit there.
Yes i am a down to earth person, i am in for comforts and fun but totally against show offs or unnecessary extravaganza! saying that i do love an occasional Gucci or Chanel... but i limit it for something that i can use for a long term basis though!  

i have to say "I HATE TRIALS"  OMG especially when i go for a window shopping and end up trying something!! but this trial phobia have been a blessing in disguise most of the times, helped me save a few bucks and also to avoid those nerve wrecking guilt trips of mine!

I feel my dressing table is crowded with accessories, cosmetics and a zillion things but still i don't have the perfect matching ones i want?? but i do have this habit of collecting things,i still have the ones i used to have when i was in my college! and Yeah it all started way before i got married!! Its hard for me to be satisfied with my shopping, either i don't like what i bought or its the price that i hate!! Its only once in a while i'll want something 'specific'  as in fashion or color or brand and i will end up looking for it for months, checking out every shop and every mall before i find it... and sadly there are still a lot i haven't found! and by mistake if i make an unsatisfactory purchase there ends my list for a while, yes i 'll just end it! else i will torture myself until i do a sacrifice any time soon! So its kinda my obligation to myself to make sure in the end my shopping bags have the things that will make me smile and not give a frown! Saying all this, i feel myself relaxed after a visit to the mall...Yep its my answer to stress! its like a soothing bubble bath for me... But only because i usually dont buy anything that will give me sleepless nights thinking of the less fortunate, believe me that happens until i return the so called item! hats off to my conscience for not loosing the humanity along the years!

The bottom line is when it comes to my Shopping agenda, i make sure to always ask myself "do i really need this?" before i make a purchase. So usually i carry the things i have picked up around the shop for a while before i discard it, so that my mind(the "woman" side") will realize itself that it is indeed an unnecessary purchase! So in the end for most percentage of my shopping i come back with a full heart feeling happy not coz i bought something new but coz i had the guts to let go of things i never wanted in the first place!

what i would like to say to the present "branded" world is to always try to remember what the people are deprived of before you make a random impulsive buy, i am not advising to sacrifice or not to enjoy the little luxuries of life, life do owe us those pamperings that we give ourselves but just to take a moment to thank and think about other human being in this world who aren't gone shopping at that moment... its a great way to let go of the world that surround us at that moment, the so called high maintenance "branded" Sheikha's...it will make us delusional  and its only human or should i say "lady like" to be enticed by that world... but learn to snap out of it, it will bring you more happiness than an "Armani"! After all its not the brands or the price tag that counts its the heart and the ability to see through other people in distress that counts... 

Tying to at least even fight our desire to over do things is the frrst step and thinking about other less fortunate people and kids are the best way to do it... it will be easier to say "No" then with a smile to the sales girl even though just a while back she coaxed you into buying it... so the longer the distance from the trial room to the counter the more things you will discard coz we really do pick a lot we dont need!

All being said I love shopping, after all its in our hormones and kinda our right... but next time just try to do another round before you reach the counter and buy you sometime to clear that mind :)

Copyright 2012 Sajima Azeez - All Rights Reserved

Clicks!

Both Old and new!

Our company at breakfast!

Blending colors!

Sukantara Cascade

My feet and my click!

The lonely Beauty!

Ready for a swim!

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Count your blessings!

I am blessed... truly blessed! How many of us actually say that? unless something new has happened! We moan over small and silly things but have we ever thanked enough for the countless blessings we have?

From around the time i could recall my thoughts... i have been keen in watching the lives around me, the people i see,their behaviors, the way they talk... and i have not come across anyone who have been truly thankful for all the blessings without any complaint! i have come across people who cry over their shopping mishaps like bad color choice,bad negotiation, poor research... people who are jealous of their friends having a bigger house, much expensive car, or even whose kids have scored better in the exams! Its not about being jealous its about moaning over those silly things... Why cant we, the most intelligent primates, literates...open our eyes and look around and see the world, the real world... the poverty, the distress in families, the crimes against innocent people,kids... the riots... the hurricanes and flood... how can we moan over having a bad hair cut when lil babies die in Palestine? how can we want more variety of food when kids die of malnutrition in somalia? ok what abt in india? how can we want more collections of clothes when there are school kids who cant buy their school uniforms? How can we not be satisfied with our salary when we see many who lost everything in the flood?

Yes... we are humans... and its only human to forget what we read, what we see and hear... but a part of us are purposefully forgetting it! everything that's bad... so that we could just move on... and live our life carefree... and yes we have to move on...we have to do that... but why cry over things we don't have and instead count our blessings? that's what puzzles me! at some point everyone have done this... even the ones who talk about it... even me... i realized this when i was actually sad over something i didn't have... all these pictures came to my mind like an omen! all i could think was 'what an $%#% i am!'

Lets count our blessings for a moment,just for fun... and be happy and content for a while before a new desire creeps into our heart and we cry over not having it! Lets be happy for the lovely world we live in, for the beautiful mornings,every radiant sunset, for the colorful rainbows, for the misty falls,the blooming flowers,the soothing rain, for the fluttering butterflies and every small wonders of nature!

Let us keep smiling for we are blessed in one way or the other!

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Best Friends forever!

Well there's this best friend of mine,who is the best girl friend anyone could ever have... She have been with me like forever... I call her when i feel down... Although she's not great at advising! She is My best friend...She's my loyal companion...  its none other than My darling sister...

 I remember... when i was a kid, i always used to imitate her in everything... I even followed her routine... I did the same things she did when she got ready for school... 5 years back... i wonder how i remembered her routine! I clung on to her always... how i irritated her at times... how i listened to all her school and college 'dramas', how i supported her in all her pranks... and even cried when she was sad! I loved her then and now...

The fun we had of all... the bus trips, shopping,the gossips, the 'Pretend cookery shows' ,the times she prompted for us(my bro too) while watching a movie...and what not!

I remember the small small things she taught me... some knowingly and some unknowingly... she taught me to read the clock,to plait my hair, to wash my clothes and even to bathe :)

She took care of me when i was small... She used to feed me, bath me and even scold me! She helped in all the things i needed help... she consoled me when i was sad,motivate me, advice me when i was in a dilemma, comforted me when i was down, she was there for me whenever i needed her... she has always been there for me just like a mother... Yes,she's more than a sister to me... More than a friend... She's like my mom... to me!

Now she's a super mom, a loving wife but she'll always remain my special friend,my loyal companion and My beautiful sister!

(P.S: Sorry for the inconvenience for non keralites,The above song is in malayalam... Its depicts the sisterhood between two young girls... the motherly affection of the elder sister towards the younger one)

There's an old song,Our song... that i love a lot... "kannam thumbi pooramo... ennodu ishtam koodamo... ninne koodathillelo innu en ulli pookalam"

time went by... After years... There still remain that bond and love we share... Its always fun when we are together... but when we three are together(my mom too) its awesome... its fun and its filled with laughter!

Now that i grew up, i don't feel like being pampered by her instead i love to pamper these two beautiful women in my life.... who took care of me and brought me up to be Me! and i'd say they did a great job :)

I respect women because i was brought up by these two beautiful women... i learned what women is all about from them... and i wish i could be at least 50% as good a women like them!

This is dedicated to my darling sister for being the same always... There nothing more you can do, there nothing i want more... all i want you to know is that you are the best sister in the whole world!

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Down the memory lane...

Ok fine, i'll take up blogging...again! Well dont get me wrong... These are my own thoughts... I used to write whn i was a kid... I wrote poems, kept a diary and even wrote a novel... I wonder where those are now!! Well i never saved any of my work, my family sure did read them and only they did :( sigh! I wish i had at least some of them saved in any old books of mine so that i could just go bak to those old days...


My favourite time of my life until now... It was just before i entered my teens... And just after it... Those days were the best days of my life, the freedom i enjoyed before i was considered a 'big girl', being the youngest really helped to add a little extra time to tht 'lil girl' stage... 

My childhood days,The things i learned , the places i explored... Everything was just like a fairy tale or a fairy land to me... I njoyed the pampering of my father, the giggles exchanged between the girls, the green nature, the stories i shared with the birds,the breeze when i held my chin up to feel them, the smile when i saw the red sky during the sunset, the times i counted the stars and wished to see one shooting... I remember the times i used to climb up the ladder at home to reach the top terrace just to njoy the beautiful sunset, to get inspired and jot down a few lines...


Everything and every moment of those days were writing me a story... The stories i'll cherish forever... I didn't realise it then but sure i am glad i have them to remember... 


I was like dora..the explorer! definitely without a backpack... I used to wonder a lot, climb trees or walls! ;) of my own home!☺ yeah i was fast and upbeat almost always during those days... I explored the world around me .. to a good extend, a 9 or 10 year old can... My visits to my father's place( my uncle's) were always filled with new things, things tht were new to me since i lived in the city... The village offered a lot of excitement, the fields, the coir industry, the goats, ducks n chickens, the tamarind trees, most of all the loving people around... I never missed any chance i got to walk around and explore... The lives,the beautiful nature and every time i went... I stumbled across something new and exciting! 

My visits to my maternal grandparents, added an extra spice called 'pranks' to those days... Definitely with my cousins... Together we used to sneak out for our day's adventures to begin... Our strolls through the streets, visits to the river bank... where we had our share of fun, the bicycle rides (which i was scared of), and when we got tired the pennies from my grandma sure did buy us a lot of sip up's! We played and danced... Merely and happily enjoying every moment, the day ends with the echo of our laughter lingering the corridors... I was loving it, every bit of my childhood!


Never going to get those days back, nor our children will have such a time in their life... I feel bad for them,for those who never got a chance to enjoy or missed these small wonders a child could cherish for a lifetime...


Adios until my next visit :)

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Pitter-Patter Rain Drops...

Its raining, its heavy and pouring in... feels like someone's gonna avenge the wicked... like its gonna wash out all the evil... How can something so beautiful be soo frightening at times...

Its calm now... I can hear the dribbling drops near and far.. The sky was dark but things have become more clear now...They made beautiful small swirly twirly ripples in my aquarium( as i call it... my fish reserve). Its heavenly...  I hear the shudders of the thunder but it doesn't bother me coz i am mesmerized in the moment...
One truth about the rain is, it bring out all our pain... but... also takes away with it... all those pains...

My memories take me back again...  those school days... when we tore the pages from our notebooks to make small boats..., when we used to swirl around with our new umbrella,just like in the ads...and splashed the waters with our feet...  the times we danced in the rain and came home sneezing! the times we wished it to be a holiday... and the times our wish came true! The time we went running,when it rained out of the blue...and the train trips... all these bring that upward curve to my lips,called the smile :)

Its getting lighter and softer now...just a faint drizzle... the sky looks beautiful as the darkness is disappearing... sun rays are spreading across the sky... like the merging colors...
everything looks fresh and clean...shining under the new light... the happy rose buds are glowing with the glittering droplets... all these takes me to a different world, where time stands still... everything moves slowly... no one's in a hurry, where everyone's happy and everything is green... where the only sound is of the spring and lakes...and the chirping birds... and how i wish i could stay there forever...

well i was lucky to stay at such a place for a few days... It was on our vacation to Thailand...Chiang Mai is the place... we stayed at this awesome cascade resort, in the midst of a waterfall... its was so peaceful... we were surrounded by only water and trees and birds... it was soo peaceful and refreshing!
i think everyone of us deserve such a vacation once in a while to escape from all those hectic life and work schedules... to rejuvenate our self...

Let our minds live young and die young!

Adios friends...

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What a wonderful world...

I see trees of green, red roses too...
I see them bloom for me and you.
And I think to myself what a wonderful world...


I see skies of blue and clouds of white.
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night.
And I think to myself what a wonderful world...


The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky...
Are also on the faces of people going by...
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do.
They're really saying I love you...


I hear babies crying, I watch them grow.
They'll learn much more than I'll never know...
And I think to myself what a wonderful world...

Yes I think to myself what a wonderful world...